Please help! I kinda feel suicidal?

so i moved to a different state. i have moved 13 times and this time was the worst. i feel like somebody i really loved broke my heart. it was really hard to say bye. i miss my friends soo much i hate colorado i wan tot move back to arizona, to be with my friends. every night i fall asleep crying. i do fun things that i would normally have fun with, but im not having fun. i just want to die cause im so miserable. and to make it even worse i dont think i will see any of them again. my parents promised i would, but, they never keep there promises. i dont want to make new friends cause of the fear i will be heart broken again because im moving again. please help me