Abortion/grief/failed relationship?

Wisen Smart is indeed wise and smart. First of all, forgive yourself for the abortion....realize the crazy situation in which you found yourself and know you did what you thought was best at the time you made that decision. Anyone who judges you for that has never walked in your shoes, and so they can judge all they want but heaven forbid, they should be in the same position. Screw them. I think you should find a different living situation, even if it means living with your family for a short time while you save money and can become independent again. Be kind to yourself, you have been through hell. Give yourself time to heal and become the strong girl you used to be. Believe me, I know how it feels and it sucks and is very hard, but time IS kind and will help you get through this. Don't make hasty decisions, if you can, find a counselor to help you through this and take care of yourself. You have people who love and care about you....remember that. I am sending you a virtual hug. It really will be okay. TRUST.